First of all it is weighing on my mind to thank you, Eli, for all the willingness (and the desire) that you have to be orderly and to assist me in being orderly.  It is a great gift that you have and i expect that you will embelish it and let it florish until you have exersized your capability  to encompass the order that can be everywhere.

Now, i was very concerned about how little gratitude i have exibited in response to the fullness of wonders that i have been granted on this earth.  There is much more than this earth that i would like to be involved with, yet there is such a fulness of life here that i would like to understand it all and return some kind of payment for all the joy i have received while here.  The world has things like water, cold, hot, food, graciousness, selling, sharing, golf, trains, airplanes, clouds, sunshine, warmth, friends, guests, marsupials, refridgerators, Catholics, barbeques, hats, computers, illumination, green, shishkabobs, swimming pools, motors, chemicals, weapons,.....all of these and more waiting, busily, hoping for use.

To make my life very much worthwhile.  The idea that God has slowed down light enough to brighten this corner of the universe to my vision, passion, response, understanding, hearing, tasting.  Well, that he has cracked open eternity to let me peek into this wornderful plethora of eclecticism is overwhelming to me.  Family, hope, giving, togetherness, are so comforting as i work my way forward to heaven.  I'm hoping that ALL the good things are there.  I am praying that the songs we sing will always be wonderful for us.  That they will not separate us.  That meals wiall fulfilbring us together.  That waste management will be a duty we all fulfill.  That and more.

That we are circling the sun at appx 30,000 meters per second -- and that light travels at appx 300,000 meters per second fills me with a gratitude for having my identity intact at this small portion of Godspeed.  I hope our identity will grow and be acceptable by him for his sake.  Little chips directing ships through the storm and to the harbor.  It's Got to be soon.

Ezekiel 22:4  suggests to me that i could cause my days to draw near, and may come even unto my years; through guilt.  Yes, i have guilt.  If to assuage that guilt i must endure the mocking of those that be near, and those that be far from thee, weill, to be infamous and much vexed....i will endure, if God will not leave me.  If the Holy Ghost leaves me, i will become fatherless, a widower, without sons, daughters, and daughter in laws.  Let me not humble anyone but myself.  Let me consecrate and rededicate myself, that iI may remain without spot, that the Lord may find a use for me to continue on his path.

Luke 22:27 brings to mind again the question "Who is greater, he that sitteth at meat, or he that serveth? "  Well,  i hope that i can be allowed not a kingdom, but to eat and drink at His table in His kingdom.  Oh, that my faith would fail not.  When i am without purse, and scrip, and shoes, lack i anything?  Must i take a garment and sell it for a sword, or can i be left not to break that which the Lord will heal.  Yes, all that is written must be fulfilled,...but must it come by me?

Oh to be a spirit of a just man made perfect.  Oh, that i could rid myself of that spirit in me that lusteth to envy.  Oh, that i could try every spirit and believe that which is good.  Oh that He would abide in me and i could abide in Him, my God.  Oh, that i could be mighty in prayer, listing to obey Him, that i would speak the truth and lie not, until his spirit is poured out upon me until i am always born of the Son (Mosiah 18:10 and 27:24)

Now, the daily things that take me from being able to just sit and read sciptures, hoping to be fulfilled to understanding.  To retype each and every word till it fills my soul.  So many people have heard of my typing the Book of Mormon, yet so many of them would have to take it simply on faith for their eyes did not behold it, yet i know it is true.  Will any proof exist, or once existing, remain?

Well, again, i try to wind this down though my heart wants to stay here and hear the words so wonderful.  Off i go with just a few more words,  I love you, you are good people.