So how would life (our relationship) be if Jesus was a part of it. 
A 3-way relationship.  Suppose we were playing clue.  the game. 
three hands dealt.  I can only figure out the answer by perceiving
the correct and most advantageous questions to ask, and getting
truthful responses from the other two parties.  Jesus can tell
what all the cards are and wins the game much before either of
us can get started.  Jesus wins.  Suppose immediately upon
starting the game, Jesus shows his hand, and Risa shows her
hand, and Lennox shows mine.  Now we have three simultaneous
winners.  Suppose we each keep our hands tucked and we fill out
the game sheets with the answers from our questions to each
other.  No-one can presuppose any answers that would be given,
nor can they use their responses overlappingly.  The answer is
(and only can be) given if one of the three players has the
answer clearly shown on their sheet.  Time, experience, and the
roll of the dice, and the dealing of the cards dictate who the
winner will be.  In these hypothetical games, there is clearly to
be a winner.  Just for sake of exploring, lets suppose this game of
'clue' is our endeavor  here on earth.  we must rely on each other
to tell the truth and also rely on each other  to have the ability to
know what cards they have in their hand, and also to have the
ability to pass that knowledge between each other.  With these
assurances, at least the game can progress.  The previous
experiences, and the intellectual perception, that we each have
plays a major role in the outcome of the game.  The major result
that is desirable here should be that the winner is satisfied and
has actually won something worthwhile.  'Clue' is not an ideal
game to use as an analogy to 3-way marriage.  Maybe no game is. 
Because of the competitive nature of the game, i do think, though,
that we should use this one to at least explore what we can and it
is a handy start.  it would be ideal if we could all win together, as
a team.  Jesus's knowledge coupled with his desire to share it, is
ideally suited to create an extremely valuable atmosphere for
growth.  Maybe we even learn and experience better when we
are teaching as we learn.  The danger there lies in possibly
teaching something that we do not have perfect knowledge of
and by doing so, lead one another astray.  However, i think that
the value of sharing new information is of such value that it
outweighs the perils that come with it.  If we can share it as
information and allow each other to make the decision as to
whether it is valid knowledge or not.  I am having a distinct
problem with writing my thoughts down as fast as my mind
forms them.  One of the drawbacks is that i want to keep the
written one quite clear and distinctly workable.  You may be
happy to hear that i think my mind is only about twice as fast as
my pen.  That is not always true, but it is at least encouraging
that i am not so overwhelmed with different thoughts that i can't
share any of them.  If i could keep all my thoughts firmly at my
disposal for long enough to sufficiently sift and sort through
them, i think i could file them well enough to glean such a
tremendous amount of information that significant progress
would be inevitable.  Oh how i have learned the value of the
precepts that are learned with the grasping of the power and
utility of a computer.  I wonder which will be of more lasting
value, to study and perfect the use of my mind, or to sink what
little expertise i have into using the computer i have.  All i had to
do was ask the question and i knew the answer.  I had the
answer before i reached the first comma in the second preceding
sentence.  If i sink what little expertise i have into using the
computer, i will facilitate my own studying and perfecting the
use of my mind.  I am very excited about the long term prospect
of the full utilization of my mind.  that excitement helps me to be
capable of spreading my enthusiasm over to the computer.  I can
now easily manufacture the desire to fully explore the uses of
silicon, electricity, plastic, and metals in the acquisition, storage,
retrieval, extrapolation, and computation of information into
knowledge. What an endeavor!  One glaring need remains.  The
knowledge is going to be used for one purpose or another.  It
appears to me that even at this ignorant of a stage i need to
commit to what my intent of the uses of this knowledge is.  Then
in the different stages of my studies, i can form and use certain
rules to make more certain the correct disposition of the
knowledge is attained. This path appears well beaten and the
course is probably well outlined.  It still devolves on me to blaze
the path myself.  No-one can walk it for me.  About two hours is
all i've invested so far and the goal already appears in sight.  No
closer, but my sight is getting keener.  I am immediately getting
jealous of my time.  Sleep could rob me of precious moments. 
The health of the computer is essential for clear, consistent, and
usable processing.  Still, the effects of maintenance should be
minimized.  Hum, the good use compared to the overusage or
underusage of maintenance is important.  Again, my mind
outstrips my pen.  Just too quick sometimes.  I have heard you
express concern about all the aspects of your life.  'My sight is not
keen enough' ,'my body is not pretty enough','my mind is not
clear enough','my spirituality is low'. I would be very happy to
see you successful in overcoming all your limitations. I love you
and would really like to see you grow and flourish into bloom. 
You are good company. Well, the path of learning appears to be
very valuable.  I love you risa, and i am very attached to our
children.  While i want very much to attain the blessings that are
in the path of learning, the desire to be with you is much keener. 
I think it would be wonderful to expand our  horizons together. 
As a family, and as a unit enhancing each of us personally and
individually.  all the love i have to give is yours.  As you give it, i
will echo it to you through the depths of my soul.  The
reverberations would make it decidedly thunderous.
love lennox

Hi. here is one last note that is the final try to squeeze as much
into one piece of paper as possible you know life is like this there
is so little time and it only happens once and we can either sleep
through it or we can squeeze as much as is absolutely possible
into it there is a question though in my mind about the need for
adequate punctuation in life when do we need to stop and pause
and carry over and exclaim and semi pause and stuff like that so
that other people can understand the direction of our lives so
that they can either get out of our way or get in it anyway all of
the small things in life like small lettering is very important for
our daily survival and while we shouldn't rely on other people
we all do the most important thing that we can share besides
openly showing our own commitment to what ever we are
committed to is to show assurance to those around us oh how
much those close to us will blossom if we just assure them in
their daily lives that they are doing the right and good and true
and useful and important things of course we do not have to lie
just find the moments when those close to us ARE doing the
important things that is the time to voice assurance and when
they are not that is the time to display our own personal
commitments so that they can easily decipher our position so that
they can easily choose if it is useful to follow or lead or be around
us now john i would like to say that i am very very excited about
to coming home from china there is a let down to be sure to find
your life changing but the world out here where we share the
gospel more by action than by words is still exciting and
wonderful and i am happy to be on the earth at the same time as
you you know i was up there watching so many people down
here that i would have been very happy to be down here with
and it is such a blessing that Father in Heaven sent us down at
the same time so i would hardly ever miss you happy birthday
happy celebration of twenty one years around the sun this letter
itself shows a lot of my soul and if you ever need to feel close to
me then just re-read this because i am writing it at a time when i
feel very loving to the entire world and especially to you and if i
had my way i would feel like this for a long long time and i
would think these things for many many years and so what more
is the real me than the way i want most to be if i were to tell you
what the most important things to me are they would go
something like this
1- my committment to Father in Heaven to always do the right
thing at all costs
2- my committment to Risa to always work next to her as we
wend our way to Father in Heaven and that i will not leave her to
the wiles of Satan if it is within my power as long as my
committment to her does not interfere with my first and
foremost commitment
3- my committment to my children that i will do all in my power
to help them learn to express their wills in correspondence to the
Laws and Will of God and my willingness to go to all lengths to
help them describe just exactly who they are both to themselves
and to their Father in Heaven and this at all costs except and
unless it interferes with the first of my committments or with the
second
4- my committment to my brothers and sisters one of which you
are that i will go to any and all lengths to help and assist them in
the entailment of right and the curtailment of wrong that i am
available and very willing and very much want to be open
forthright and helpful to them and that i would very much like to
see them express their wills in such a manner that Heavenly
Father is happy with their direction whether he is happy with
their volume speed or other aspects are secondary all though
they are not meaningless as long as they are happy in their
direction and when they are not happy with their direction it is
my resolve to show and demonstrate that i am happy with mine
and that i have found this direction to be very valuable and
rewarding albeit there may be overwhelming trials there are also
overwhelming joys
5- have you noticed that each committment gets windier as they
get more removed from the most basic committment that there is
my committment to my extended family who are relatives but
not at the cost of time or availability to any of the other entities
or committments that are previous and of most importance to me 
To describe my feelings about the church the community the
county the state the nation the government the world the sky is
to enlarge on the same general ideas that are generated on a
small scale with each of the people encompassed in the forgoing
section you see how can my children and i have a relationship
where they know i would do things right with them unless i have
one with me that i would do things right with me from there
comes nearly the same principle in a different expression for any
other word  My ability to be honest with my wife is based on my
ability to be honest with the Lord my ability and desire to
understand new or old things with anyone is based on my desire
and ability to understand what the Lord has given me scriptures
for instance and this principle is notably based most on desire if
there is a question about whether it is better to do without
knowing or to wait until you know what is right it is my feeling
that i should do by doing i express to the Lord my willingness to
be involved and he will enlarge me on that talent until my knew
talent encompasses the talent of knowing what is right in that
kind of situation if i do not do because i am not knowing then
that looks like an endless circle that can hardly be broken and
ends only in not knowing and not doing hence the prophets
admonition to do it yes then we express our willingness to the
Lord and if nothing else we are doing next is doing what is right
next is continuing in doing and next is continuing in doing what is
right look how the circle has taken on a whole new picture which
now entails all the things which you have any inclination to
believes right scripture study prayer exercise work talking
writing letters assuring others each of these feed the circle and
enlarge the understanding tuseful to him for his glory is
intelligence and  which of course stem from his efforts in
bringing us to salvation by our wills and his grace what a
magnificent circle it is i can see how some scriptorians are
enthralled so much by the magnificence of it all while others are
so taken by the power of how specific some passages are each is
true the scriptures have a great overview while not neglecting
the small weighty matters it is wonderful how the Lord works so
much for us i am somewhat inclined to just sit and sing praises
rather than expound on specifics as i have endeavored to do so
far well john it is easy to say and to see that i love you and the
Lord and Risa and Ali ad infinitum and although there are many
perils and trials that i have both been involved in and will be
involved in i am still firmly committed to the path of
righteousness and the glories that will therefore be the Lords
because all this is at his expense he has put so much of value in
our way get this letter in the mail soon and read between the
lines that i love you and that i am very happy that you have
chosen to do the things you have done one other thing that is
weighing on my mind is that there is a word in the Lords
language that has been lost or misplaced and i want it back if
enough of us ask for it maybe we can get it it is the word for a
person who is perfect in his committment to do what is right at
all costs you see PERFECT in our language takes on the
unattainable meaning of NEVER MISTAKING IN OUR JUDGEMENT
OF WHAT THE LORD WOULD DO AND NEVER SHRINKING FROM
THAT CHOICE WHEN WE DO UNDERSTAND IT. No that is what the
Lord is but the word i want means KNOWING THAT I WOULD DO
THE MOST CORRECT THING WITH ALL THE INFORMATION THAT I
HAVE AND NEVER SHRINKING FROM THAT CHOICE we all waver
from the Lord knowingly that is imperfection that is sin only
when we do it knowingly i am sure i am also sure i miss you tell
me when you will get home so i can have sufficient time to
choose and plan a trip to SLC for conference or your return or
both or neither with my express assurance and approval for your
endeavors........

I could forget the importance of this, since it is disguised with its
simplicity.  Everyone is only responsible for tackling the simplest,
smallest, easiest task they can find.  Some of us sway and clutter
a day with bigger challenges than we need to.  This allows failure
to enter in.  You need to only face the smallest challenge and you
can't help but win.  If you pay yourself the joy you deserve for
overcoming your smallest challenge you will receive with it the
strength to meet the challenge that is now your smallest and you
will snowball into a never ending cycle of success, happiness, and
growth.  Each of us need some calling card.  I have wanted to be
eclectic enough to see all there is and know significant amounts
of everything.  But my responsibility to us is that i hold fast to
this simple small principle.  We are responsible for the task at
hand.  The smallest measurable portion of that task is where we
measure our strength.  We are, with that, engulfed in a necessity
of being happy for the blessing of being able to fulfill that
responsibility.  It's then, and in that fashion that we grow and
flourish.

lennox  11:32 p.m.   28march88.
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